12 weeks 5 days

The baby is SOO big!

Okay so now that Chris and I have officially agreed on giving up our child, we now need to find the perfect family for the perfect child. I want my child to have parents that are just like mine. They are still together, are successful, are fabulous parents, good Mormons (but not Mollys to an extreme). I don’t know I just wish my parents were about 20 years younger and be my child’s parents. Oh my goodness gracious this is going to be the hardest decision in the whole world to make! I can’t see myself giving my baby up to… just people. I know some people can’t have children and will adore this child so much. I want to give someone that blessing, but who is the question. This baby is mine… my blood, my features, my everything… and so I’m going to give him or her up to who…?

11weeks

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Well today was well completely awful… yet fabulous. I went with Chris this last weekend to Tennessee to visit his mom and to clear a ticket from his record. Well today was the day we got to drive home. Well we were kind of in a hurry to get home due to my first OBGYN doctors appointment I had at 2:00. Well so I really couldn’t eat anything because I get sick eating in the car. So at 2 I got to the appointment feeling all gross from dry heaving hours before. Well they gave me a pap, checked for the baby’s heart rate, and took blood. GALLONS of blood! Well because I was sick that just made me sicker. During the blood taking I swear my whole arm turned black! Okay maybe exaggerating just a little. Well I turned pure white and started seeing spots and feeling dizzy. I tried to walk it off, pretending to be fine, but I only made it to the door then it got so bad that I had to lie down or else I would have passed out. The doctor had me drink a glass of water… the same water I threw up as soon as I left the office. My arm still feels weak and restless. It is honestly KILLING me! Well after I left the doctor, Chris took me to get a bag of popcorn, a big bottle of water, and to watch The Devil Wears Prada. Then we went and ate Hibachi at my Japanese restaurant. He really is a nice guy. OH! I’m having my very first Ultrasound this Fri.! So I’ll post the picture!