Monday, September 29, 2008
Once he’s here we’ll have a place to stay, we’ll be able to rent a car, and we’ll be more capable of seeing everyone! I think he’ll be here October 22nd. It all depends on his orders though.
I took the MARTA to the base the other day and signed up for Tricare South, ACS, and went to check on the housing list. I’ll tell you one thing GEORGIA IS HOT!!! I was sweating like crazy walking around that base! I brought mostly winter/ fall things, because in Belgium it’s getting cold. I forgot that it doesn’t get cold till way later out here! Also I was SO excited to get away from GA allergies and now I’m dying once again! Seriously, I wish I could rip my face off! My throat is itchy, my nose is running, I sneeze constantly, my teeth feel extra weak. I just feel so BLAH!
Also Lily and I are still having a hard time with jetlag (sp?). We’ve managed to get it so we wake up around 8am and go to bed around 9 or 10. But I WISH we could go to bed at like 5. I feel tired all day and so does Lily. This is a really hard adjustment.
I found two townhouses for rent that I’m going to look at this week. I hope they’re nice and SAFE! One’s in Avondale Estates… less than a mile from the Marta, and one’s in Stone mountain (but in a Decatur area code) right on memorial Dr. It’s about 12 minutes for the Marta. The one in Stone Mountain is a little cheaper rent. I REALLY hate this pay cut we’re taking by moving here. We’re going to lose our COLA and our free housing… EVERYTHING! I really hate it! But Austin is so worth it… plus we’re still a young married couple. We should be struggling more than we do. It’s a part of marriage!
Anyway friends and family in Georgia… I’ll come see you guys in October! We’ll be LIVING here so there’s no big rush and I HAVE to get some things done!
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
I hope that we meet again one day!
The army has bless
They gave us a job, a home,
Then they sent us to Belgi
Then the army decid
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Plus I LOVE wasting electricity, running the water, and not having to worry about paying anything!
We're going to look at it first, but I've been stressing myself out too much and right now I am done.
Besides we have WAY too much furniture to live in an apartment.
So HOPEFULLY we can get into on post housing!
Monday, September 22, 2008
Sunday, September 21, 2008
and it will be my birthday in like 6 hrs. in the states!
And I've just entered my 30 weeks!
Only 10 more weeks to go!
Hopefully this week we'll get our orders to the states
or atleast hopefully they'll tell us where we're going!
I'm about 90% sure we're going to GA...
but you never know... after all it is the army!
I've had a CRAZY first 20 years.
And I'm ready to start my next!
Thursday, September 18, 2008
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Monday, September 15, 2008
Also my friend LeAnn's daughter had a seizure so shes been in the hospital since thursday or friday. She won't get released till ATLEAST wednesday. I really hope that Brianna is okay! We've been going over there to keep them company and to bring them food, but I really don't know what else i can do! I wish there was! I'm REALLY going to miss them when I leave!
So I must give BIG props to Chris for coming through last night. I put him in charge of dinner so I could just stay with LeAnn all day. I told him what to make, but he made it GREAT! He brought the food up to the hospital and we all devoured it! We had Chicken marinated in Itallian dressing, both ranch and itallian pasta salad, and garlic bread. It was WONDERFUL! He did a great job! Then when i finally got home he had cleaned the downstairs (for the most part) and he put together Austin's new Highchair (thanks again Karen and Steve)! It looks GREAT! I just love it!
Also I'm 29 weeks!
Friday, September 12, 2008
Thursday, September 11, 2008
It's times like these where I wish my parents still lived in GA!
Austin's due November 30th.
And Chris is TRYING to get leave to be there!
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Austin does not have Tetrology Of Fallot (TOF), he has a heart defect LIKE TOF, but it is more rare and more severe. So pretty much they will need to do the surgery as soon a possible. The chances of the surgery working is a 70% to 95% chance. The doctor also said that the first surgery will be the hardest, depending on how small the Pulmonary valve is (I think that's what it's called I just looked at a picture of a heart and guessed the name. Th hearts in google look more complex than the one he drew for us. Anyway since he doesn't have the part of the Pulmonary valve (I think) that connects to the other valve the are going to have to switch it throughout his life, because it won't grow with him. They said that they'll have to be from doners. He'll have to get one as a baby (a few weeks after the first surgery), one as a child, a teenager, and an adult. I mean They'll monitor him to see when they need to switch it. The doctor said that once he's an adult he will only need one surgery and then he'll be done. But he isn't going to have as normal of a life as we had hoped for him. But he will probably life a good long life so that's all we hope for. I REALLY hope the first surgery isn't as hard as he thinks. He think that the part of the pulmonary valve that he does have is really thin. He said he couldn't really see it in the ultrasound. So that has me worried.
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
Monday, September 08, 2008
We went to the hospital in Brussels and I guess there was an emergency, because the doctor couldn't make the appointment so we have to go back tomorrow. But just from that visit I think I'm leaning more towards going home. Chris and I talked about it and neither of us got a good feeling about the place. It looked really trashy. You wouldn't have known it was a hospital unless you saw the sign. The whole facility was dirty and smelled bad. It was REALLY hot in there! There seemed to be no order. There were pregnant people and people with babies scattered everywhere. It just was so gross in there! I felt like we were going to catch something! I just don't think I'll feel comfortable putting my child in the care of people who can't seem to keep a facility clean and presentable. I don't want to seem picky, but that's my child we're putting in there! My child with a heart problem! Chris agrees with me 100%. In fact he was the first to say that this place is no good. I guess we'll go back tomorrow and meet the doctor, but I'm pretty sure that we'll be better off if I'm in the states. The question now is will my doctor write a permission slip to let me on that plane or am I too far along?
The main reasons I'd like to stay here in Belgium are well I already have a doctor here and I know I'm fully covered, Chris is here and I really want him around for this. Plus if i go out to the states I don't know how long I'll have to stay out there for the surgeries.
The big reasons I want to go back to New York are that I really want to be with my mom during this. She's been through rougher pregnancies than I could even imagine. Plus I have 4 sisters that I miss terribly and I really want to see them. Also during recovery and during Austin's surgeries I'm going to need people to watch Lily. I can't put that kind of burden on my friends here!
Mainly if I stay here I get to have Chris in the picture, but if I go home I get to have my mom.
This is the hardest decision!
No matter what Austin will be taken care of.
I've heard the hospital out here is a good one and Stateside is always a good option too.
So it pretty much comes down to me.
Sunday, September 07, 2008
Austin is in his last months of being "hidden" from the world.
Today I start my last trimester!
I'm sure Austin agrees with me when I say that both of us are excited for him to get out.
I feel like I'm as big as I can possibly get, but according to babycenter I still have A LOT to gain!
I will miss pregnancy, but I'm very excited for him to join our family!
Tomorrow I'm going to Brussels for that ultrasound.
I'M SO NERVOUS!
Saturday, September 06, 2008
Friday, September 05, 2008
It's a little battery powered car. There are two buttons on the handles... one makes it go and the other turns on the headlight. She wanted FULL control... we tried to get her to put her feet up, but well you'll see!
Thursday, September 04, 2008
on the 22nd :)
I'm not expecting anything, but if you're wanting to give me a little something...
- gift card to dillards (I'm in need of a lot of things there)
- Some new MAC eyeshadow and eye primer
in natural tones and browns
- Mac eye brushes
- money to go towards a new camera
- Hollister giftcard
- gift card to Victoria Secret
- any really cute maternity top (size S)
- Ikea Gift card (I don't know if they have GCs)and if you don't want to get me anything that okay, but you better say Happy birthday in a comment or email or something :)
I'll finally officially be out of my teen years.
20 years old
CMR 490,BOX 2328
APO AE 09708
First off, if i go to the states than I'm going to have to go to Fort Drum to see a doctor and they're military trained doctors. The doctors out here are not military so they're better trained. I mean I COULD go off post in the states, but Tricare wouldn't fully cover all the expenses... and I have a feeling this is going to get expensive!
Also I've heard that Belgium has some of the best healthcare in the world, and could very possibly be more advanced than the states. But I'm still researching on that.
I know this part is selfish and if going to the states is for the best than I screw this, but I REALLY, REALLY want Chris to be here for this pregnancy and birth. He wasn't there for Lily and he wasn't in the room for her birth, and my guess is that any other kids we might have will probably be born while he's deployed. This is the only time he's guaranteed to be there! Plus being in the states sounds fun for a visit, but not having any friends or social life will get old fast! Plus I was REALLY looking forward to having a baby shower! UGH! This part is SO SELFISH! But this is my blog so I'll be as open as I want!
Another thing is that Chris was talking to his commander today and he said that it is possible that because of Austin's situation that we may be PCSing out of Belgium really soon if the help he needs isn't here. I REALLY hope that we can find the right help here! I'm not ready to leave Belgium! I mean I'm finally making friends, I love how Chris can't get deployed here, I love how relaxed it is here, I love our four day weekends every month, and Chris is doing SO WELL here! Plus I don't think I've had my fill of Europe yet! I haven't traveled as much as I want to before I go! I just hope that the right healthcare is available for him in Belgium so we don't have to go yet. I mean I get homesick for the states, but I know that a few weeks will be long enough to get satisfied and then I want to come back home.
No matter what though, in the end, Austin comes first. If he will do better in the states and we need to move then so be it. I'm just hoping that it doesn't come to that.
I can't believe I'm almost in my last trimester of pregnancy! It seems like the first two trimesters were so short! But I already know that the last trimester is going to feel like two trimesters put together. I'm not excited for Austin to leave me yet. He's just so safe and warm in my little belly. I love having kids, but there's something about being pregnant with them that is really special. I mean I'm his home! I'm his guard from the world! Nobody can see or touch him without coming through me. They can't even feel his movements unless I decide they can. Austin and I are more connected right now than we will ever be again. Soon he'll be running around wanting to be free, then wanting to go to school and friend's houses, then he'll be wanting more freedom, and before I know it he'll move out and have his own family! All life is is a long process of letting go of your mom. But it goes WAY too fast for the mom! I'm so sad that he's already trying to kick his way out of me! He wants to stretch out and be free! He wants to leave me already! My little baby! Lily's already wanting everything her way and she wants to be completely free... she's not even two yet! That's it... Austin is not allowed to leave my belly or grow up... ever! He's safe and healthy in me... his heart beats regularly and is very well taken care of in my womb. The world is far too scary of a place to let him come into. I hate letting go! My babies are way too amazing to have to grow up in this awful world! I just hope that in the end I get some grandchildren out of this... but not for ATLEAST 26 years! Anyway Aussie and my belly time is coming to an end. I just hope he gets to live a healthy, happy life. I hope his heart doesn't stop him from becoming all he can be in this world, and I hope he's happy... really happy. I KNOW Lily's happy. She tells me everyday. You can't looks at her without her smiling, laughing, or wanting to play a game! She's seriously a goose! Austin is so lucky to have such a fun big sister! I can tell she sees the good in things and I hope she can see the good in being a big sister. We'll see! I just will miss being pregnant... I'm belly mourning! I'm going to have to let go sooner or later...
Wednesday, September 03, 2008
She said she would make them and then bring half of them over for us.
Just look at what she brought me and you'll know that she's a GOOD friend!
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
I've been thinking about this heart problem of Austin's and what it might turn out to be. I had a cousin with downs and let me tell you... Holly was my favorite cousin! I lived with her for a few months and we seriously bonded! The died in her sleep at age 8, I think it was, and I just don't know how I could handle my baby having a short life. Also every morning and maybe night... It's all a blur now, but her mom had to take that poor girl in the bathtub to give her shots. I think that would break my heart! But other than that I think I could be a great mother to a little boy with downs. Lily would probably grow up extra fast so that would be another disadvantage, because I want her to stay as young as she possibly can for as long as she can. But as far as Austin goes, I think I'll be okay... I just hope he will be!
Monday, September 01, 2008
I love that Chris is taking care of me though! He hasn't made me move a muscle since we got home! I can tell that he's a little worried too. I broke down and cried to him in the car, because it was just too much to handle... and he just was very supportive and caring. I love him so much!
Thank you guys for all yalls support and concern. I'll try to keep you guys updated as much as I can!