Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Day 31

Claire's heart is developed and looks good, BUT she has tricuspid valve leakage and fluid around her heart in some places.  We have to go back in a couple weeks.

Monday, January 30, 2012

Day 30

Tonight we made s'mores for dinner.  Poor Gray didn't get chocolate on his... stupid allergies!

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Day 29

Gray and I skipped church today, but Lily went.  This is an instagram photo.

Saturday, January 28, 2012

Day 28

Lily in the morning... so pretty. :)
I wish I could feel whole again... just for one day.  Not just a broken person trying not to ruin my kid's lives.


So most of my blog posts are me trying to turn a horrible situation into a positive one and it is for me.  So if anyone gets offended or takes anything I say on my blog personally I recommend you don't read it.  This is my blog for my thoughts and feelings, and I'm not going to sit here and sensor what I write to not hurt yours.  I hate that everyone in life has challenges and I try to be sensitive to peoples things, but come one guys, this is a blog about me trying to find my way.  Let me, please have my place.  I may have to go private and that's really sad since this is how I share things with my husband as well.

Thanks for ruining my one spot now I'll sensor everything so I don't hurt anyone else.

Friday, January 27, 2012

Thursday, January 26, 2012

Day 26

Today Grandma came to Gymnastics and Lily was extra awesome!


Wednesday, January 25, 2012

Day 25

It was a very slow morning, Lily didn't wake up until 11 so Gray and me watched cartoons. :)


Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Monday, January 23, 2012


Day 23

So I've started a new one hour "Play with Gray" time.  Lily is getting so busy with all of her pre-schooling, cleaning, technology, etc that she doesn't ever seem to just take time to play with her little brother unless I'm there.  So for an hour-a-day she gets to go into their room to play without me.  I can get stuff done and they can learn how to play on their own and hopefully stay close as they grow.

Sunday, January 22, 2012


Day 22

This pretty much describes our afternoon after church.  I love lazy Sundays!

(Also I've been playing around with higher iso's lately and am really enjoying pushing my photography limits, so pictures may not always be bright and perfectly clear, I need to grow as a photographer and staying comfortable is not the answer.)

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Day 21

Today was a very relaxing day.  We woke up to it snowing (it was BEAUTIFUL), Lily and I made hot cocoa and eggos, we worked on Lily's letters, watched movies, and just enjoyed our Saturday!


Friday, January 20, 2012

Day 20 (part 2)

Also for Lily's birthday i decided to take Lily out on a Mother-Daughter special Birthday date!  We went to Melting pot for cheese and chocolate fondue, and then we went and saw a special 3D version on Beauty and The Beast in the theater!  It was so much fun and we both had a blast!  I love my little Lily Belle so much!

(just phone-camera pictures, but will cherish the memory)

Day 20

Lily put together a fun package for her grandparents!  She helped me make them a treat, wrote them letters, packed the baggies herself, helped put them in the boxes, and then we took them to the post office to send off. She is so excited and is excited that they're on their way!

Thursday, January 19, 2012


Today I downloaded instagram, best decision ever!

Day 18

In Lily's words this was, "The BEST birthday EVER!"  It was a fun one.  She chose everything we did.  We didn't make it to everything on our list, but her favorite parts were:

Watching Gnomeo and Juliet
Eating Mcdonalds
Her cake of FRUIT
Her presents... especially her her "iPad" (leappad)
Skyping with her aunts (Emily, Natalie, and Jessica)
Eating lots of fun foods and playing, dancing, and being 5!

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Tuesday, January 17, 2012


I really don't like comments like this...

"I'm not Hot or gorgeous. I don't have an amazing figure or a flat stomach. I'm far from being considered a model but, I'm me. I eat food, I have curves, I have more fat than I should, I have scars, I have a history. Some people love me,some like me, some hate me. I have done good, I have done bad. I love OH's and I go without makeup and don't get my hair done. I'm random and crazy,I don't pretend to be someone I'm not. I am who I am, you can love me or not. I won't change!! And if i love you, I do it with my heart!! I make no apologies for the way I am."

I'm all for loving yourself, but that's not what these sound like, they sound like you've given up and now want everyone to accept it.  What ever happens to trying to become a better person??  Shouldn't we all be trying to improve and be better?  I mean, I have history... you all know that.  I got married and had a kid at 18... and it was choices I made that led me to that.  But instead of just accepting myself as some loser, I keep improving and kept bettering myself.  And I will keep becoming better everyday!  Why should you just accept your flaws and weaknesses?  Yes, there are things we can't change about ourselves and it's good to accept and even embrace those things, but if you CAN change it, then do!  Don't settle for being who you are when you could be so much better!  Okay y'all can hate now lol...

Day 17

Today after gymnastics, Lily and I went over to one of my friend's house for lunch and to hangout.  I had a great time and her kid is adorable!!

Monday, January 16, 2012

Day 16

Lily and I made french toast for breakfast... we went through a lot of eggs, before everything was said and done lol.  She'll learn eventually. :)

Sunday, January 15, 2012

Day 15

Church was fun today.  I could hear the lessons, Grayson behaved, and Lily came home excited about what she learned. I think this is progress!  We did miss the Sacrament though, I'm slow in the mornings!

Now to spend the rest of the afternoon eating good food and playing games!

Ps. Yes Gray has food in his mouth, but atleast he's looking in the general direction of the camera... that's a success in my book!  He doesn't like the camera at all lol!

Saturday, January 14, 2012

Day 14

This is Lily's "Hey!  I've got an idea!" face lol.  She does it atleast 100 times a day and it usually is followed by an absurd idea that we would never do, or a or idea for playing pretend.   

Friday, January 13, 2012

Day 13

I guess since I'm at my halfway point, I should show off my "big" belly.  

Thursday, January 12, 2012

Day 12

My mom decided to paint her kitchen/Family room a really pretty Martha Stewart light grey (you can't really see the color in this pic) this week, and Lily was her little helper.  I'm definitely using this as the paint in Lily and Claire's room!  And Lily will get to help then too! :)

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Day 11

Lily loves playing pretend all day... everyday.  She plays library lady, doctor, mommy, married couple, restaurant, pizza man, statue, sleepy baby, EVERYTHING!  Not only does she have a very big imagination, but she can stay in character for HOURS!  My favorite games when I'm busy are definitely statue and sleepy baby lol.  They're pretty self explanatory.  Today we played
"Lily's Fancy Restaurant"
and I was the "cooker" :).  It was a fun twist to a normal lunch.  

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Day 10

Today was a pretty exciting day for Lily.
She started a new gymnastics class, got to go to Panera for lunch, and she got to come with me to my 20 week ultrasound!  She LOVED it! 

Some of my favorite Lily quotes:
"how are we going to look at the baby? I don't want them to take off your belly"
"She's so cute, I want to bite her... I really think she wants to bite ME!"
"she's cute, but not TOO cute"

Oh and Claire is definitely a girl!  My due date got switched from the 31st to the 25th, which is like skipping a week of pregnancy for me!  Yay!  She LOVES her hand up by her face like Grayson!

Here is a picture from today of The O'Neal Girls! :)

Monday, January 09, 2012

Day 9

Claire Elizabeth O'Neal

Sunday, January 08, 2012

Day 8

Lily's new OBSESSION is Uno.  She wants to play it all day and all night.  She's getting pretty good too.  I don't believe in letting my kid's win on purpose, and she has won quite a few times!  We taught her three days ago.  It was a fun after church activity while my dad watched football.

FB status-
We taught Lily Uno tonight and after playing around 5 rounds, she's a pro! She even dealt out cards when it was her turn to. I'm glad she figured it out so quickly! And she was so okay with losing! I'm a proud momma. ♥· Thursday at 8:43pm

Saturday, January 07, 2012

Day 7

Yesterday as we were taking down the Christmas tree, Lily took all the popcorn garland outside for the birds.  She then found her binoculars and has been watching the popcorn all day yesterday and today.  She is the cutest!
Today, she's seen a red robin, blue jay, and a squirrel enjoying her treat. :)

Friday, January 06, 2012

Day 6

Grayson LOVES bathtime and his grandma's musical bath toys!
There's a xylophone, drum, and water flutes!
He loves to use the drum to pour water on everything!

Thursday, January 05, 2012

Day 5

Today Lily graduated from her 8 week session of Gymnastics and got a ribbon.  She starts a new session next week but she loved getting a ribbon and cheers from all her classmates.  Next week she's starting new classes every Tuesday and Thursday.  I hope she improves as much as she has these past 8 weeks!  

Her favorite thing at gymnastics is the trampoline and what she calls her "carton wheel"!

Wednesday, January 04, 2012

Day 4

All my sisters, besides Jessica, came out to New york for Christmas this year.  Today Olivia leaves and she's the last to go. :(  I love Christmas and family.  I wish they could have all stayed longer.  Today we're eating good foods and playing fun games for the last time and then my Christmas season is officially over. :(

Tuesday, January 03, 2012

Day 3

Oranges have been the biggest part of the season!  I'm addicted!  We made orange rolls, orange Julius's, clementines, orange juice mixed with sprite, everything!!  It's my favorite fruit... and Lily's favorite color!  I painted her nails this morning. :)

Also yesterday at CVS, Lily stuffed her pockets with nail polishes and candy.  It was her first time stealing.  I made her apologize and put it all away.  We had a long talk on the car ride home and she promised to never do it again so when we got home she got a three minute time-out and that's it.  I'm glad she understands that it's wrong to take things without buying or asking for them.  I hope she really won't do it again.

Now for olivia to make orange Julius's for breakfast! ;)

Monday, January 02, 2012

Day 2

One of our favorite treats!
My Dad's famous green chili's and cheese broiled on corn tortillas topped with eggs!

Sunday, January 01, 2012

Day 1

Even though Austin isn't in this picture, he is very much still apart of 2012.
Happy New Year

New Years.

Here are my resolutions for 2012.
  • Read the Book of Mormon and FINISH it!
  • Get completely active in church.
  • Get up and go to bed at the good time.
  • Get Lily school ready.
  • Be more productive and set and keep a schedule for me and the kids.
  • Save, save, save!
  • Be a better wife.
  • Keep up with my 365 blog.