Wednesday, January 30, 2008

The next three years of my life

The O'Neals
CMR 490,BOX 2328
APO AE 09708 2328

my new address.
We were going to live in better housing, but we decided that if we stay in these (which he said are nice from the inside) we'll have that much more money to travel!
An experience is SO MUCH MORE than a nice house.

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Busy Bee

I feel so overwhelmed and can hardly stand it! I have a sick little girl that doesn’t seem like she’s improving at all. Well I take that back, she slept a little better last night and ate a little more today than she has been. So I have that on my plate which means NO SLEEP at night. And then during the day I’ve been working on doing everything that Chris needs me to do to get us moved over there in Belgium. Today I had to get permission is writing from the bank to get our car shipped out there, got my oil changed, and went to target for lots of baby proof things for the new house. I have so much to do and so little time. It’s never ending. My plane ticket is for Feb. 15th, and I just don’t think I’ll have everything done by then. I’m so glad that my parents are here to help me during this whole in between homes time. I’m defiantly ready to be in my new home though. Since its Europe I will definitely be getting my new furniture and d├ęcor from the fabulous IKEA! I’m so excited! I liked how our last home was decorated, but I’ll be in Bel for the next 3 years of my life, so I’m planning on making it more… me. Hopefully I can do that within our means… because you know me- I’m not low maintenance and I like things to be stylish. I love the modern look. Ikea is reasonably priced so I hope that I can have my style and Chris can have the satisfaction of us still not having much credit. I mean besides our car, and our credit cards, we are debt free. Our credit cards will be completely paid off in 3 weeks… and that makes me VERY happy!! Because I am in charge of finances I feel completely satisfied when things like that happen. Anyway I feel like the more I get done the more that piles up. At this rate, I’ll never get to Belgium, and Chris will be there all by himself. And that cannot happen. I already miss him way too much!!

Sunday, January 27, 2008

poor bug

Lily is so sick it’s devastating. We were planning on going to church this morning. Last night she was coughing and her voice was raspy… but her cold wasn’t near as bad as it is today. Her voice is gone, she can’t breath, she woke up with a fever, she won’t eat anything. She’s just so sick… sicker than she’s ever been before. I used to think she had Chris’s immunity, because she NEVER got sick, but lately she’s caught everything that’s gone around. Maybe she needs to eat healthier. I don’t know, but it’s breaking my heart how sick she is.

chillin with the lou


I keep thinking that the longer I’m away from him the less progress we are making. I feel like since we’re not together right now we aren’t doing what were supposed to be doing. I haven’t learned anything new about who Chris is this month, I haven’t found out a new food he likes, I haven’t gotten to know him anymore than I already do, nothing. I feel like we are so slow in our marriage development. I hate that feeling. We are married, but we are just there. Nothing can make or break us. There’s no good or bad being done. I want to not feel so useless. I want to make progress and be closer to becoming “one” than we were last week… or last month. I want to tell him I love him and I want to tell him I hate him. I want the good OR the bad… but I just want SOMETHING!!!

I know being apart makes us stronger which in return makes us closer…

But I want us to be stronger and closer, because we see each other all the time and can’t get away from each other!

…oh the joys.

Friday, January 25, 2008

i want

I want a beautiful house one day. I want to be efficient. I want my marriage to last forever. I was a big family. I want to be a great mother and wife. I want all my kids to love and look up to me and much as I do my mom. I want to go to college. I want to get into photography… not as a profession, but as a skill. I want to be a Photoshop expert. I want to learn to enjoy reading. I want to have a family as close as my family is when my children reach adulthood. I want to have a more enhanced vocabulary. I want to learn how to not judge. I want to have more of a backbone. I want to have a plan. I want to be a better singer. I want to not be so shy. I want to think before I speak. I want a Carolina wedding ring. I want to see the world. I want to be a leader. I want to be seen as a mother… not a teen mom who made a mistake getting married so young. I want a bigger wardrobe with cuter things. I want to be able to walk in high heels. I want go to cosmetology school just to have the skill. I want a great camera… and I mean top of the line and professional. I want to have a happy family.

I want it all.

Monday, January 21, 2008

army wives bond

I just made a new friend.

Online of course, but she seems really nice! I think She n I are going to get along really well! Her name is Tana. People call her TanTan… I thought that was kinda ironic. But her husband and Chris get along so she and I are both hoping that the boys will get close so we can be couple friends. Anyway she is 24, and from Flordia. She was just recently stationed in Ft. Gordon. We have a lot in common. She makes me more excited to get out there. All her army wife friends seem fun too!!

Sunday, January 20, 2008


I’ve been meaning to get a hold of everyone to thank them for the WONDERFUL birthday gifts. But Although Lily LOVED her birthday yesterday and today we aren’t doing so hot. The night of her birthday we both got really sick. I’m constant throwing up, and using the restroom. I’ve been running a fever, although it’s not as bad today. Lily has been having lots of poopy diapers. Neither of us have eating really anything!

Oh and just so all of you know, I don’t know where my cell is. So if you’ve been trying to call me… call the house. Plus I never use it anyway! But it has all of yalls numbers in it, so without it I don’t know anyone’s numbers so you’ve got to call me! I’m not purposely ignoring anyone!

I got my hair done!
Toned, Highlighted, and cut.
at a cosmetologist college!!

Friday, January 18, 2008

birthday bash!

playing with the focus :)

Lou and me cleaned a HUGE mess!!