family is love

Okay so I decided I have the two best families ever. I can’t wait to see my “bigger” family this Christmas. I love just sitting around the family room playing our computers, playing games, getting into fights, and being the family we are. As far as my family goes, I can’t believe how it turned out. I’m not going to lie. When Chris and I FIRST got married I thought it was just for Lily. I mean I knew that and did it anyway, because I loved Chris and wanted to have him be part of my family. Well since basic Chris has completely changed his priorities. Where he wasn’t even close to committing before, now he’s probably more committed than me! He has stopped drinking, he wants to get home early in evening to put Lily to bed a watch a movie with me, where before he would ALWAYS want to go to the stupid bar. He loves me so much I he shows it every single day. Yeah we still get into our stupid little fights, but who doesn’t? We will get in many big ones too. We are young, and that REALLY scared me. I got married at age 18… think about what’s the percentage of failing marriages at our age? Even more than that what the failing percentage of army marriages? Pretty high. So how would I not be scared? I was frightened to death. I mean nobody in family has ever gotten divorced. And Chris has never wanted to be like his dad when it came to marriage. So we are committed. I know it will be hard. Heck, I already wish I had waited. I missed out on a lot of fun times, but now that I’m creating my own family with the man I want to spend the rest of my life with, I have hope that we will make it. Yeah, I know it’s just the beginning and I have no idea what is to come… but I’m ready. And I have faith. And unless he beats me, or cheats on my multiple times, I won’t give up on us. Ever. Even when he wants to I’ll make him hold on. Because divorce is for weak people. Chris and I are getting stronger by the minute. I know there will be guys out there that probably would have been better for me and the same goes for Chris, but we chose each other. We made that choice. I chose Chris to love for the rest of my life. He chose me. It will be hard, and we will have to work on it every single day. But I want to. And I will. Chris and I are a forever thing.