Sunday, May 22, 2016
Dreaming about my lost boy.
I had an Austin dream last night. I don't remember much of it, I just remember looking for him in a panic. I wasn't sure why I was panicking but I had to make sure he stayed with us. I can't remember seeing him in my dream, but I vaguely remember he was with us earlier on in the dream. Anyway while I was sleeping, he was still alive and I have no recollection of him passing away. So it was so odd waking up this morning. I very much remember my mind shifting from asleep frantically looking for him and coming to the realization that he's gone. I wish I was still asleep where I truly forgot he's gone. I've been thinking about that dream off and on all day. I just wish I could have found him before waking up. I wish I could go back into that dream. One day I'll be able to stop looking for real.