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I love food. I really do, but I’ve never been much of an eater. Not only am I pretty picky, but I’m a small portions type girl. And I ONLY drink water and milk. That’s all I’ve ever needed or wanted. This pregnancy is seriously screwing with me. All I can think about is food. What I could bake, trying to eat out as often as Chris will allow, making food in abundance! It’s getting ridiculous! I don’t see how people eat like this normally. I honestly feel disgusting! I feel like I’m gaining weight as I fall asleep, I feel like I’m breaking out even when I’m not, I just feel gross! But it’s like I can’t stop! This pregnancy is going to do me in… I can feel it. I knew my genes would catch up with me sooner or later, but I was really hoping for later if not never. Trust me, I’m not about to let go of the fight, but this constant need for food and in bulk is not helping one bit! And I try to fight it! I was craving a Big Mac and fries the other day, but instead had a bowl of mini wheats (okay a few bowls). I have not felt satisfied until today… we had McDonalds for dinner. Okay enough venting! I just need more control, but still feel like I’m giving Grayson everything he needs and more!