Day 31

Claire's heart is developed and looks good, BUT she has tricuspid valve leakage and fluid around her heart in some places.  We have to go back in a couple weeks.

Day 30

Tonight we made s'mores for dinner.  Poor Gray didn't get chocolate on his... stupid allergies!

Day 29

Gray and I skipped church today, but Lily went.  This is an instagram photo.

Day 28

Lily in the morning... so pretty. :)

I wish I could feel whole again... just for one day.  Not just a broken person trying not to ruin my kid's lives.

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So most of my blog posts are me trying to turn a horrible situation into a positive one and it is for me.  So if anyone gets offended or takes anything I say on my blog personally I recommend you don't read it.  This is my blog for my thoughts and feelings, and I'm not going to sit here and sensor what I write to not hurt yours.  I hate that everyone in life has challenges and I try to be sensitive to peoples things, but come one guys, this is a blog about me trying to find my way.  Let me, please have my place.  I may have to go private and that's really sad since this is how I share things with my husband as well.

Thanks for ruining my one spot now I'll sensor everything so I don't hurt anyone else.

Day 27

Yay for getting my car fixed!

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Day 26

Today Grandma came to Gymnastics and Lily was extra awesome!

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Day 25

It was a very slow morning, Lily didn't wake up until 11 so Gray and me watched cartoons. :)

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Day 23

So I've started a new one hour "Play with Gray" time.  Lily is getting so busy with all of her pre-schooling, cleaning, technology, etc that she doesn't ever seem to just take time to play with her little brother unless I'm there.  So for an hour-a-day she gets to go into their room to play without me.  I can get stuff done and they can learn how to play on their own and hopefully stay close as they grow.

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Day 22

This pretty much describes our afternoon after church.  I love lazy Sundays!

(Also I've been playing around with higher iso's lately and am really enjoying pushing my photography limits, so pictures may not always be bright and perfectly clear, I need to grow as a photographer and staying comfortable is not the answer.)

Day 21

Today was a very relaxing day.  We woke up to it snowing (it was BEAUTIFUL), Lily and I made hot cocoa and eggos, we worked on Lily's letters, watched movies, and just enjoyed our Saturday!

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Day 20 (part 2)

Also for Lily's birthday i decided to take Lily out on a Mother-Daughter special Birthday date!  We went to Melting pot for cheese and chocolate fondue, and then we went and saw a special 3D version on Beauty and The Beast in the theater!  It was so much fun and we both had a blast!  I love my little Lily Belle so much!

(just phone-camera pictures, but will cherish the memory)