Today I'm really hating the words, "one day". I usually find peace in those words, but today I just find emptiness and sadness. I know where Austin is and what he's doing, but days like today, he belongs here with his mom. I just want to find the peace I've found this year. The last couple weeks I just feel awful. And it doesn't help that Grayson practically hates me. Ugh. I'm just over today.