So glad today's over, I will not miss you. I can already tell tonight is going to be really hard. Lily is sleeping in her own bed for the first time since Austin passed away. I'm a mess. I know she needs her independence, but I just need to feel the warmth of her skin and the sound of her breathing during the nights. And to squeeze her and to FEEL that she's still here. Ugh I hate this, I feel so weak.