Tuesday, May 24, 2011

Beginning my Journey.

So today has been a very good day for me and I’m am more grateful for Heavenly Father than ever. Austin’s loss has motivated me to be a better person in every single way. So today I worked on two things, reading the Book of Mormon for the first time and making a photography studio in my home. I have never read the Book of Mormon. Although I have been raised LDS and have been taught it’s principles, I wasn’t active at all since I was 14 or so. And before that I went because I had to and never really paid attention. I never gained a testimony of my own. So in the Book of Mormon it says if you read it humbly and pray and ask God if it’s true he will tell you. And all my family members have their own experiences and testimonies. I’m ready to have my own… to find out for myself if the church is true or not. I’m still in 1st Nephi, but I am enjoying it. I’ve never had the chance to really ponder on it and now that I’m older I understand more than I used to. I have a journal that I’ve made into my Book of Mormon experience journal. So whenever I have a question, comment, an experience, or just want to share a thought I write it in my journal. It has been very helpful. I never thought reading the Book of Mormon could be so interesting and enjoyable! Also It’s time for me to pursue me dream of photography and so today I started working on making my studio (thanks to my mom and Husband)! I’m so excited and motivated. My heart is softened and I’m thirty for knowledge. I love it!

3 comments:

Marti Stringham said...

Amy, I'm so proud of you and how you're moving forward. I know you just have to take it one day at a time, and there will still be bad times or bad days, but you're seeing that there can be good ones. And that having a good day doesn't mean your ignoring Austin and his place in your heart. Love you, Marti

Anonymous said...

Amy,
You are so inspiring through your words and what you are going through. I just had to tell you that. You make me want to be a better person. I hope you have more good days. Hang in there and keep reading. The BOM is so powerful!
-Katie Rindfleisch

Freeman Family said...

I read your blog all the time. I was so sad to hear about your son. I loved hearing how you found strength in the Lord and have started reading the Book of Mormon. I had the same experience you did, I grew up in the church also and never really had a testimony of my own till I read the Book of Mormon. It's hard to not love the church when you've read it. I will say that when you finish the Book of Mormon never stop reading it daily, otherwise you testimony will waiver which I have also experienced.I wish you luck with your photography I love the pictures you've taken of your family and you're also a great writer! You're in my prayers :)