"Daddy outside?"

My heart just broke into a billion pieces. I was sitting on the bed playing with Aus and Bug and Lily was pointing out our eyes, ears, nose, etc. Then she did all of our hair. She said, “mommy, Daddy, Austin”… she did herself when she said Daddy. Then she look at me and kept saying daddy and looking around. Then she said, “Daddy outside?” and repeated that while looking out the window. She was looking for him and she thinks he’s coming back soon. She’s going to miss him so much. Austin won’t even remember him. All the sudden I feel like crap.