Tuesday, September 02, 2008

considering the possibilities

I've been thinking about this heart problem of Austin's and what it might turn out to be. I had a cousin with downs and let me tell you... Holly was my favorite cousin! I lived with her for a few months and we seriously bonded! The died in her sleep at age 8, I think it was, and I just don't know how I could handle my baby having a short life. Also every morning and maybe night... It's all a blur now, but her mom had to take that poor girl in the bathtub to give her shots. I think that would break my heart! But other than that I think I could be a great mother to a little boy with downs. Lily would probably grow up extra fast so that would be another disadvantage, because I want her to stay as young as she possibly can for as long as she can. But as far as Austin goes, I think I'll be okay... I just hope he will be!


6 comments:

angelle said...

Holly was very special to all of us that she knew and loved! I hope all goes well with little Austin. I can tell that you love your little boy very much.

Karen said...

I love your positive attitude. It was great talking to you yesterday, you sounded very upbeat and hopeful. I wish I could see Chris waiting on you hand and foot...you really need a video of that! I'm glad you are seeing a specialist next week. You are in my prayers. Love, Karen

Dena said...

Holly was and still is an angel to us. If Aussie has Downs you know that he can still live a full long life. Every downs child is different. You are a strong mother and woman and I know what ever happens with life you will be able to handle it all. Plus it is great that you have this rocking family that is always here for ya. call me if you need too any time.

Hayley McCoy said...

Im so proud of you for keeping a positive outlook on everything that is happening!

Jaden said...

I loved Holly! Her sweetness is so missed! :)

Dunklees said...

Just wanted to let you know that we are hoping all is well and including your family (especially Austin) in our prayers! By the way, Lily is growing up beautiful!
~Steph